10/20/25 [ entry #5 ]

My biggest enemy is myself! She is critical and pessimistic at times but I’m commited to befriend her and change her mind!! I want to take care of her and water her and watch her grow and flourish because I love her !

10/11/25 [ entry #4 ]

I've been on a rollercoaster ride of emotions the past weeks, but I persist. I think I've done quite alright. More than alright. Having negative feelings doesn't just go away but now I sit with it with more grace I feel like. HOPEFULLY. Maybe the missing piece really was creativity and art and just making something out of nothing, the thing I've loved since I became sentient, also the thing I abandon when the going gets tough. Introspection, cool beans. But seriously though, what is an artist without a muse? What is a poet without paper and ink? Miserable pieces of shit. It is so easy to lose ourselves when life happens, we stop doing stuff that makes us ourselves. Whatever. On another note, Yano-kun's Ordinary Days is such a good romcom/slice of life anime it makes me all giddy!! It reminds me of Skip and Loafer. I should find more good shows to watch, watching good shows is a form of self care.

10/04/25 [ entry #3 ]

Still working on the site. I believe this will be a passion project for a long period of time and I quite like that.

9/26/25 [ entry #2 ]

sick. SiCK. SIICKKKKkKKK!!!!

9/25/25 [ entry #1 ]

I was gonna dip back into Tumblr again with a resolve to actually code a theme from scratch and along the process I found out about Neocities (not ditching Tumblr but I did remove my page cuz fuck having to work on two coding projects). Now I'm fixated on making my own Neocities website. Feels nice and productive. Process is tedious but rewarding, I wish to keep the momentum going. I wanna draw and write and do all the things that make me feel like the snooty art bitch I once was. I am NO LONGER A STAGNANT BITCH!! I AM A GET THINGS DONE BITCH!!!